Sunday scaries

I am officially on leave from work now. Taking a short term leave for about five weeks while I complete the next phase in my treatment. Normally, on Sunday's, I get what most people call the "Sunday scaries" (anxiety about the workweek coming up and thinking about all of the things you have to do at work). Today, I don't have the scaries for work related issues. I am scared for tomorrow. Starting new drugs (chemo pills x2 day) and radiation 5 days a week for 5 weeks. I've been doing great on my "break" from chemo, and I am dreading tomorrow. I've been drinking all the wine and eating all of the bad food for a few weeks now, and tomorrow will change all of that. I keep hoping that the meds will not affect me like last time. The side effects listed are not ideal...and googling the medication doesn't help....at all. I'm fully prepared to get hand and foot syndrome and lesions in my mouth. I hope that it won't come to that. I have purchased all of the creams, and any other "remedies" I could find and I pray that I won't have to actually use them. I will report back on what worked for me, in case anyone else goes through this. They say that I will also get super tired...but I think that might be cumulative (so maybe it won't kick in for a few weeks). Regardless, I'm bracing for impact hoping for a good outcome...because I have to get back to feeling "normal" again (and drinking a shit-ton of wine!)