It might help.

Let me start out by saying, I do believe survivors guilt applies in this situation. I often feel like I can't complain, vent, be in a bad mood, or burden anyone with my feelings of stress, loneliness, sadness because I'm so "lucky" to be alive and I am "luckier than so many". When I do have bad days, or just everyday stressors with work, I try not to show it or vent to anyone except a few. It's incredibly draining, and I don't have the same energy as I once had. Inside, I'm just trying to keep it together, be good at my job, be a good friend, and partner. I'm doing everything I can to help myself (therapy, adjusting my medication, resting, reaching out to company resources on how to get help). Sometimes, I just like to bitch about work, be sad, and antisocial, but I often hide these things from people and pretend that everything is ok. Because, sometimes I don't need advice, I just want someone to listen to me, and leave me alone. It's very frustrating when my friends, family, and the people closest to me tell me to do this and that and say "it might help". Saying things like this, is the opposite of helping. I am trying the best I can to help myself, and sometimes what works for you, doesn't work for everyone. This applies to anyone that has anxiety, depression, or really anyone at all. "You should", "it helps me", "it might help", "you won't know unless you try" is all the same messaging and it's not helpful. I am trying in my own way, and no one knows what's inside another person's mind. Most people don't know 90% of what's going on with me, because I don't want them to think that I'm ungrateful for how lucky I am. I know that, and I am reminded of this every single day, don't worry, I will never forget.