Fever dream.

Did this actually happen? Were the last 6 years a fever dream? I was snapped out of my dream a few weeks ago when I got a call from an "unknown" number. My spidey senses told me not to pick it up...and I just knew that it was my surgeon calling to book me in for a colonoscopy. Fakkkkk! I thought I could be invisible enough, that he would forget that I even existed. But, alas, I was booked in for a week from that date. Just when you think it's over, it comes for you like a stun gun when you're least expecting it. That week was horrible. I showed up for my appointment (against my will! side eye) and my surgeon said "I'm surprised you showed". Well, of course I showed. I am a people pleaser and would never disrespect the man who saved my life. But still... It's such a love/hate relationship with him. I love him for caring for me, and I hate him for caring for me (if that makes sense). He's seen more of my ass hole than any other person in my whole life (including me!). Anyways, it was all clear, and I have one more round of testing next year and we agreed that I would be left alone for 5 years! I'm just so over it. I can't wait for my 5 years of freedom.