Next chapter in my story.

What's my story? Who am I? As I interview for my next job, I am plagued of thoughts of self-doubt and insecurity. I'm finding it hard to reclaim my confidence. If you asked me about 1 year ago, my spirit was vibrant, excited, full of hope and possibility. Now, I feel like I can't even trust my decision making skills. I just have to fake it till I make it as best as I can, and hope to get myself back to being me.

I have been loving my time off (it's only been 2 weeks), and the pain in my gut is so much better now. Now the fear of looking for new opportunities is scaring me. I know that I'll have imposter syndrome for a while, but I am so terrified to make another mistake or get into something that I can't get out of.

When I look back at the last year, I think about how one thing can domino affect your life in such a way that it affects so many other things in your life. Relationships, self-esteem, emotions, family, all of it can fall like dominos in an instant. I am putting it into the universe that I want the right opportunities to come to me, and everything else can fuck off. Only good things will come my way from now on, and I won't accept anything less. Resilience is key. If anyone else is in the same boat, I see you.